You win some :) You lose some :(

Well it's been an interesting and full on week. My weight has come down and not only am I in ONEDERLAND, but I'm also under 90kgs!!! It's funny because we don't deal in pounds here in Australia, but kilograms and I've never given alot of thought to what I weighed in pounds until I did Michael Thurmond's 6 week body makeover (another diet, which actually did work and had pretty good principles and I lost 20kgs and then put back on 30kg :) and was on the forums there that they talked about this 'onederland' a bit. So I have been keeping my eye on the day that I would reach that goal and here it is! Hence, the winning part of the title. Also being under 90kgs isn't somewhere I've been for over 10 years so it was nice to see that on the scales this morning. I even took a photo, which I was going to post, but I have no idea where the lead is for the computer because I've just moved. I'm pretty happy about it, but it's mostly stress related and I've hardly been able to eat anything.

Now onto the losing part (and I don't mean weight). I got told on Monday that my contract is finishing on Thursday and won't be extended until February, which I was told it was going to be. Merry *^@#$%! Christmas!!! I'm so pissed off because I got headhunted for another role a few weeks ago and I knocked it back because I was supposed to have this role until Feb. That will teach me for doing the right thing!! I just wish I had've known about this weeks ago instead of finding out the week of Christmas. Of course everything shuts down and nothing will happen until the 4th, but it will more likely be even later than that. There's nothing I can do about it, it's the worst time of the year to be out of work. Another reason I'm so bummed is that I moved house recently and have done alot of renovations on it and spent alot of money, including a new kitchen, which is being finalised today and now I have no job, no income and no idea when I will!!! I have got some money saved so I am trying to think positive and just take advantage of the enforced break and enjoy it. So naturally, my Band friend has tightened right up and I can barely eat anything. Not that I want to anyway because I just feel ill and have that awful, sick feeling constantly in my tummy.

Oh well, let's hope 2010 will be a better year. I'll be putting in major efforts to get www.lapbandforthemind.com up and flying so I won't have to rely on other people for work and make it happen myself!!

Have a very Merry Christmas and a safe and Happy New Year everyone!!!!

Jen

Groundhog Day.....

So I went to see the lovely Dr Caroline and after discussing the events of 2 weeks ago, she was more than happy to put .1ml back in the band. Given I don't experience any reflux issues she knows I won't abuse the band so back in it went! Unfortunately, it doesn't seem to have made much of a difference though! I definitely don't have the same level of restriction that I had last time and my weight has pretty much remained the same. I have to confess that I realised I had slipped back into some old habits and was eating too much snacky junky type food so this week I'm making an effort to do less of that as well as I think I had also been 'drinking' far too many calories which don't keep the hunger at bay for long enough! So I'm making an effort with that as well. Hopefully it pays off!

Hope everyone is having a great week!

Jen

www.lapbandforthemind.com

Ho, Hum....

I haven't posted this week, mostly because I don't have a lot to say really. I know - how boring! To be honest , this week I've been struggling a bit because the loss of .1ml out of my band seems to have made such a difference where I haven't really lost any weight and I have even been fluctuating putting on! Not to mention I can eat more Devastated!

The good news is that I'm going to see the lovely Dr Caroline tomorrow and will have a good chat with her. I've also had a migraine for the last 3 days so that has knocked me around a bit. I feel better today, but am now very tired and can't wait for this week to be over. The more I thought about my last appointment a few weeks ago, the more I get annoyed. Although I know I had been quite tight and not able to eat a lot, I was happy with that because I was getting the results and combined with the thyroid treatment I've been taken I know I had a decent loss. So to have basically stayed the same the last 2 weeks is frustrating. That is the first time I'd seen that Doctor and she doesn't know me from a bar of soap or anything about my history so I should have spoken up. Although she is supposed to be the expert and who am I to question her?! I guess I know my own body best so I should have said something. I didn't because I knew I was coming back in 2 weeks so not a lot could happen. I will discuss with the Dr tomorrow who I have a good history with and see what she thinks. It had taken me a good 6 months to get to what I considered 'ideal restriction' and to lose it again from a measly .1ml out is really quite astonishing.

I still have a good 15kg - 20kg (at least 33 pds) that I want to lose and my BMI is around 34 so I am still classed as obese!!! One thing that annoys me about my surgery centre is that once you have lost 50% of your excess weight they class you as a success. Well I don't know about you, but although I am very proud of myself for the weight I have lost so far, I would hardly consider still being obese, a 'success'. I don't want to be 2 years own the track from my surgery and still trying to lose the last 10kgs.

Not a bad post from someone with nothing to say!!

Hope all is well with everyone :)

Jen

www.lapbandforthemind.com