I've had a really strange week - I discovered I am suffering an identity crisis. I had been really freaked out and was feeling quite low about it all. The more weight I am losing, the more my skin is getting worse and the more I wasn't liking what I was seeing in the mirror. I had even gotten to the point where if someone commented on how I looked, I just changed the subject and didn't even acknowledge it. I had an awesome chat to Jodie the other night and worked through it and I have to say that we came to some very interesting conclusions! (Thanks Jodes - you are bloody awesome!!). I haven't been at this weight since I can't even tell you. I can only guess that it was probably when I was about 18 or 19, so nearly 20 years ago! Naturally I was a completely different person back then so now I find myself in a place where I'm not sure where I fit in now that I have lost all this weight. Sometimes I think just shut the hell up, you've lost all this weight, you should be happy and stop carrying on like an idiot! But, it's really affected me lately. I think it's because now I have to stop and think I'm not that person anymore and if I'm not that person, well then who am I? For so long I have been overweight, losing weight, putting on weight, dieting, thinking about dieting, blah...blah...blah....now.....I'm almost at a place where I don't have to think about that anymore. Obviously I know I am essentially the same person inside, the one that counts the most and I haven't changed in that regard, but I need to work on how I see myself, how I feel about myself and most importantly, I have to let go of that old person and realise that she's no longer here and embrace the new person that I am becoming. It's been extremely confronting, but the best part about it, is that not once I have felt the need to turn to food for comfort. That is a massive step for me and something I am extremely happy and proud about!!
I'm sure all of this hasn't been helped by the challenge I put to myself to lose 6kgs in 6 weeks, which actually doesn't seem like a ridiculous stretch target, but I think it's started to send me back to the bad old days where I was obsessed about counting calories, counting fat grams, was I doing enough exercise and all the madness that goes along with that! I got the Lap Band for a lot of VERY good reasons and one of the main ones was so I didn't have to go through that craziness anymore! I used to be the one who was not so concerned about what the numbers said on the scale, but rather about how I looked in my clothes and I've really gotten away from that of late. So for now, I'm just going to work on letting go of the past and embracing the future!!
Has anyone else gone through something similar?? Would love to hear your thoughts!
Jen
xx
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Meh....
I haven't updated lately because I really don't have a great deal to say!!
I am on track to reach my goal of 6kgs lost before Easter, which is also my birthday and that means I'll be in the 70s, which is completely phenomenal and really exciting, but I just feel quite flat about it all to be honest. This week proved a little harder though and I'm going to have to put in some super effort to continue on to keep dropping the weight. It definitely gets harder the lower you get. I think some of my blah feelings around it all is that I saw some photos of myself that were taken at a work volunteer day last week and I went 'oh, I thought I looked better than that'!! Totally crazy and then got me to thinking about how I looked 47kgs ago!! Blech. Some days I think gee I look good and am revelling in how far I have come and then other days I feel like I haven't even lost a pound. Crazy I know and I'm trying to cut myself some slack about it. I think that it's pretty hard to change 20 years of thinking in even the nearly 18 months since I've had the Lap Band and it's something I'm continuing to work on and improve.
In totally excellent, very exciting and awesome news - Jodie is pregnant!!! I'm so happy for her (and Shawn), they have been trying for so long and I'm glad it's finally happening for them. Now that she's 15 weeks and going really strong, she's back in amongst the blog world, so check out what's going on with her here.
Hope everyone is going well!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
I am on track to reach my goal of 6kgs lost before Easter, which is also my birthday and that means I'll be in the 70s, which is completely phenomenal and really exciting, but I just feel quite flat about it all to be honest. This week proved a little harder though and I'm going to have to put in some super effort to continue on to keep dropping the weight. It definitely gets harder the lower you get. I think some of my blah feelings around it all is that I saw some photos of myself that were taken at a work volunteer day last week and I went 'oh, I thought I looked better than that'!! Totally crazy and then got me to thinking about how I looked 47kgs ago!! Blech. Some days I think gee I look good and am revelling in how far I have come and then other days I feel like I haven't even lost a pound. Crazy I know and I'm trying to cut myself some slack about it. I think that it's pretty hard to change 20 years of thinking in even the nearly 18 months since I've had the Lap Band and it's something I'm continuing to work on and improve.
In totally excellent, very exciting and awesome news - Jodie is pregnant!!! I'm so happy for her (and Shawn), they have been trying for so long and I'm glad it's finally happening for them. Now that she's 15 weeks and going really strong, she's back in amongst the blog world, so check out what's going on with her here.
Hope everyone is going well!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Saturday, February 20, 2010
A good week!
I lost 1 kg (2.2pds) this week!! That may not sound like a lot to some of you, but that's pretty good for me, especially as I think the lower you get, the harder you have to work to get it off. I made a decision to try and eat as well as I could, cut out most of the crap and I didn't even up my exercise intensity. It's 6 weeks until my birthday and I want to lose 6kgs in 6 weeks. I stuffed up my calculations and now I only have to lose 5kgs in the next 6 weeks so that's nice to have up my sleeve. The good news about this is that it means I am official over 100 pounds weight loss (102) - yay!!! I am also getting close to 50kg weight loss - 46.4kg at the moment. I'm getting close to the 70s too. Probably haven't been there since I was a teenager, that is incredible to me. It's funny that all the milestones come pretty close together.
The new job is going really well. All the people are nice and I'm slowly getting a handle on what the hell it actually is that I'm supposed to be doing! I even got paid for 3 days yesterday when I thought it wasn't going to be until next Tuesday so that was a bit of a bonus!
I think I'm developing a bit of a shopping obsession! I can't help myself! I've been buying quite a few new clothes of late and went to the shops again today and brought a few more tops. I'm not worried about it, I'm enjoying the fact that I can actually find things, it's all very new to me!! Bring it on I say!!
I brought a new house in October last year and spent quite a bit of money renovating it. Now that it's all done, I've decided this is the year for renovations on myself!! :) I've been wearing contact lenses since I was about 14 so I want to get eye laser surgery done, I so want to look at the clock radio in the middle of the night and know what time it is!!! I also want to get my teeth whitened and plastic surgery. As controversial at it is, I feel like I need to do it to complete the journey. The more weight I lose, the more loose skin that appears :( One of the worst areas are my arms, I don't even feel like I can wear singlet tops because I don't feel comfortable with the bat wings flying around! I don't want to have to go through all of this and not feel like I can wear bloody sleeveless tops, that's just crazy!!!! Bloody genetics, bloody age and bloody being overweight for so long! I knew it was going to be unavoidable. Aaarrggghh. It's a bit of a way off though so we'll see what happens later on.
Hope everyone's journey is going fabulously!
Jen
x
www.lapbandforthemind.com
The new job is going really well. All the people are nice and I'm slowly getting a handle on what the hell it actually is that I'm supposed to be doing! I even got paid for 3 days yesterday when I thought it wasn't going to be until next Tuesday so that was a bit of a bonus!
I think I'm developing a bit of a shopping obsession! I can't help myself! I've been buying quite a few new clothes of late and went to the shops again today and brought a few more tops. I'm not worried about it, I'm enjoying the fact that I can actually find things, it's all very new to me!! Bring it on I say!!
I brought a new house in October last year and spent quite a bit of money renovating it. Now that it's all done, I've decided this is the year for renovations on myself!! :) I've been wearing contact lenses since I was about 14 so I want to get eye laser surgery done, I so want to look at the clock radio in the middle of the night and know what time it is!!! I also want to get my teeth whitened and plastic surgery. As controversial at it is, I feel like I need to do it to complete the journey. The more weight I lose, the more loose skin that appears :( One of the worst areas are my arms, I don't even feel like I can wear singlet tops because I don't feel comfortable with the bat wings flying around! I don't want to have to go through all of this and not feel like I can wear bloody sleeveless tops, that's just crazy!!!! Bloody genetics, bloody age and bloody being overweight for so long! I knew it was going to be unavoidable. Aaarrggghh. It's a bit of a way off though so we'll see what happens later on.
Hope everyone's journey is going fabulously!
Jen
x
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Sunday, January 31, 2010
It's Official.....I'm a size 14 (woot woot!!!)
Yay!! How exciting! I went on a marathon shopping spree yesterday to buy some new clothes for this job I'm starting next week, there was barely anything in my wardrobe that still fit. Every single piece of clothing I brought - tops and bottoms - from an array of shops - were all size 14!! Very happy about that! I even got a few size 12 singlet tops to wear under jackets that were a stretchy type material too!
It got me to thinking and I was saying to my Mum that this will be the first time in over 10 years that I'll be starting a new job where the people will only see me as I am today. They won't know I've lost nearly 45kgs (99 pds), they won't know that I've been a thousand different sizes over the last 10 years, that I've been on a million different diets and that I've put on and lost the same 20 - 30kgs a hundred times over!! It's a nice feeling and gives me so much confidence.
Even though it's still summer & still quite warm in this part of the world, I was also thinking that I can't wait until winter so I can buy some boots. I've never been able to wear boots because my calves have always been too big, but not this year! Something else to look forward to.
It was so nice to be able to walk into any shop and know I'd be able to find something that would fit! There have been too many times in the past where I walked away from a failed shopping attempt empty handed (and in tears), even when I had said to myself that I will spend any amount of money, just as long as I could find something that would fit! I am so glad those days are gone and they will never return. I love my band so much :)
I've also been giving some thought to my 'goal weight', I've never set it in stone because I never knew what I would look like so it's always been a wait and see proposition. I have had in my head lately that I've got about 10-15kgs to go. Today I was at the shops with Jodes having lunch and was telling her about the size 14 triumph and we were discussing how in Australia, the 'average' size woman is a size 14. I decided that I reckon I'd be happy when I can fit into a size 12 pair of Target pants that I like and have always worn bigger sizes of. They had 20% off so I brought a pair and I've decided that when they fit, I'm done! It doesn't matter what number comes up on the scale whenever it is that they fit, I'll be happy. I've never thought I wanted to be a size 10 or size 8, I just don't think it would be me to be that small & I have big kahunas so I'd like to look like I'm in some kind of proportion!! That's the plan anyway, we'll see what happens :)
Much thought and reflection going on of late - I am very proud of myself!
Have a great week everyone!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
It got me to thinking and I was saying to my Mum that this will be the first time in over 10 years that I'll be starting a new job where the people will only see me as I am today. They won't know I've lost nearly 45kgs (99 pds), they won't know that I've been a thousand different sizes over the last 10 years, that I've been on a million different diets and that I've put on and lost the same 20 - 30kgs a hundred times over!! It's a nice feeling and gives me so much confidence.
Even though it's still summer & still quite warm in this part of the world, I was also thinking that I can't wait until winter so I can buy some boots. I've never been able to wear boots because my calves have always been too big, but not this year! Something else to look forward to.
It was so nice to be able to walk into any shop and know I'd be able to find something that would fit! There have been too many times in the past where I walked away from a failed shopping attempt empty handed (and in tears), even when I had said to myself that I will spend any amount of money, just as long as I could find something that would fit! I am so glad those days are gone and they will never return. I love my band so much :)
I've also been giving some thought to my 'goal weight', I've never set it in stone because I never knew what I would look like so it's always been a wait and see proposition. I have had in my head lately that I've got about 10-15kgs to go. Today I was at the shops with Jodes having lunch and was telling her about the size 14 triumph and we were discussing how in Australia, the 'average' size woman is a size 14. I decided that I reckon I'd be happy when I can fit into a size 12 pair of Target pants that I like and have always worn bigger sizes of. They had 20% off so I brought a pair and I've decided that when they fit, I'm done! It doesn't matter what number comes up on the scale whenever it is that they fit, I'll be happy. I've never thought I wanted to be a size 10 or size 8, I just don't think it would be me to be that small & I have big kahunas so I'd like to look like I'm in some kind of proportion!! That's the plan anyway, we'll see what happens :)
Much thought and reflection going on of late - I am very proud of myself!
Have a great week everyone!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Monday, January 25, 2010
Ramblings...
Hi
I hope everyone is doing well! Had a few interesting things going on of late. I finally got a job - at one of the big 4 banks here in Australia and now I'm just waiting to go through a probity check to ensure everything is ok - I'm sure it will be, there isn't a criminal record I'm unaware of :) Hopefully I will start next Monday or probably a few days later as tomorrow is Australia Day here and a public holiday so will lose a day of checking. I'll have had nearly 7 weeks off and it hasn't been all that relaxing with the stress of having to look for work, not to mention no money coming in so it's not like I'm out shopping up a storm or anything!
On Friday I had to go sign my new contract so it was a good chance to catch up with my friends who work in the city that I haven't seen for awhile. All of them were raving about how much weight I'd lost to the point where it actually made me a bit uncomfortable! I think it's because I see myself everyday and some days I think I'm getting places and other days I feel like I haven't achieved a thing! It was nice, but a little full on as well. Maybe because I've been home for nearly 5 weeks and haven't had the same kind of interaction, I think I might've gone into my shell a bit!!
My weight has come down a tiny bit, but has pretty much stayed the same for a few weeks. Today I went shopping & brought a whole stack of healthy food to chow down on. Stacks of protein: eggs, chicken, tuna & turkey and I've spent the last hour chopping up cucumber, onion, carrots & tomatoes while watching Diet Tribe!! (I love that show). Because my band has been so tight, I've been leaning towards the not so good food because they're easier to get down, but I'm sick to death of it so it was nice to get some good things and I'm looking forward to eating them! I'm also trying to drink more water because I know I haven't been having enough and it's been quite warm here.
Have a good week everyone!!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
I hope everyone is doing well! Had a few interesting things going on of late. I finally got a job - at one of the big 4 banks here in Australia and now I'm just waiting to go through a probity check to ensure everything is ok - I'm sure it will be, there isn't a criminal record I'm unaware of :) Hopefully I will start next Monday or probably a few days later as tomorrow is Australia Day here and a public holiday so will lose a day of checking. I'll have had nearly 7 weeks off and it hasn't been all that relaxing with the stress of having to look for work, not to mention no money coming in so it's not like I'm out shopping up a storm or anything!
On Friday I had to go sign my new contract so it was a good chance to catch up with my friends who work in the city that I haven't seen for awhile. All of them were raving about how much weight I'd lost to the point where it actually made me a bit uncomfortable! I think it's because I see myself everyday and some days I think I'm getting places and other days I feel like I haven't achieved a thing! It was nice, but a little full on as well. Maybe because I've been home for nearly 5 weeks and haven't had the same kind of interaction, I think I might've gone into my shell a bit!!
My weight has come down a tiny bit, but has pretty much stayed the same for a few weeks. Today I went shopping & brought a whole stack of healthy food to chow down on. Stacks of protein: eggs, chicken, tuna & turkey and I've spent the last hour chopping up cucumber, onion, carrots & tomatoes while watching Diet Tribe!! (I love that show). Because my band has been so tight, I've been leaning towards the not so good food because they're easier to get down, but I'm sick to death of it so it was nice to get some good things and I'm looking forward to eating them! I'm also trying to drink more water because I know I haven't been having enough and it's been quite warm here.
Have a good week everyone!!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Monday, January 11, 2010
A Good Day.....
So, I had this wedding on Saturday and even though it was HOT, it was nice to get dressed up and felt I looked pretty ok. It was also nice to feel 'normal' and I was nowhere near the biggest person in the room!! That's a good feeling because that wasn't always the case and I used to find that if I wasn't the biggest in nearly every room I walked into, I wasn't far off.
I've posted my before photo (which is completely horrifying, but I have reconciled myself with it because I will NEVER look like that again!!) and a photo my Mum took just before I walked out the door.
Jen
I've posted my before photo (which is completely horrifying, but I have reconciled myself with it because I will NEVER look like that again!!) and a photo my Mum took just before I walked out the door.
Sometimes it's nice to see the comparison so you can really see how far you've come!
Jen
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
A Quick Update....
Hi Everyone!
Happy New Year! I had to fill in a form today and couldn't believe it when I had to write it was the 6th Jan - time is certainly flying!
My Christmas & New Year were very quiet and for once in my life my weight has continued to drop - hurrah! This is mostly due to the fact that I'm still pretty stressed because of the job situation (or lack of one really). Things are slowly starting to progress on the job front, but as much as I'm trying to 'not worry' and 'enjoy my time off', the band has other ideas! It's still quite tight and I haven't been able to eat a great deal and I just don't feel like it. I was meant to go to the Doctor tomorrow, but given I'm still continuing to lose and I don't need any fill in or out, I cancelled it. I will have to go to the next one though because I need to keep monitoring with blood tests. I'm losing on average about 1kg a week (2.2 pds) so ok with that for now. The more I lose though, the more I am noticing excess skin - BOO!! Can't be surprised though, you can't be that overweight for that long and expect not to have any. Not to mention age is not on my side (or genetics, thansk Mum!!)
I've got a wedding this Saturday and it's going to be HOT - 38 degrees (or 100.4F for my friends not in this part of the world!). I feel sorry for the Bride and all the guys suited up, going to be shocking! These are people I work with and none of them know I have the Band and it's going to be hard to eat anything. I haven't 100% decided, but I am thinking about making this the year that I don't mind telling anyone I have a Lap Band. I'll let you know what happens - whether I chicken out or not! I'm also going to be taking some updated 'after' photos which I might put on here, but will go on the website, because I have definitely lost a bit since then.
Hope you're all well.
Jen
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com/
Happy New Year! I had to fill in a form today and couldn't believe it when I had to write it was the 6th Jan - time is certainly flying!
My Christmas & New Year were very quiet and for once in my life my weight has continued to drop - hurrah! This is mostly due to the fact that I'm still pretty stressed because of the job situation (or lack of one really). Things are slowly starting to progress on the job front, but as much as I'm trying to 'not worry' and 'enjoy my time off', the band has other ideas! It's still quite tight and I haven't been able to eat a great deal and I just don't feel like it. I was meant to go to the Doctor tomorrow, but given I'm still continuing to lose and I don't need any fill in or out, I cancelled it. I will have to go to the next one though because I need to keep monitoring with blood tests. I'm losing on average about 1kg a week (2.2 pds) so ok with that for now. The more I lose though, the more I am noticing excess skin - BOO!! Can't be surprised though, you can't be that overweight for that long and expect not to have any. Not to mention age is not on my side (or genetics, thansk Mum!!)
I've got a wedding this Saturday and it's going to be HOT - 38 degrees (or 100.4F for my friends not in this part of the world!). I feel sorry for the Bride and all the guys suited up, going to be shocking! These are people I work with and none of them know I have the Band and it's going to be hard to eat anything. I haven't 100% decided, but I am thinking about making this the year that I don't mind telling anyone I have a Lap Band. I'll let you know what happens - whether I chicken out or not! I'm also going to be taking some updated 'after' photos which I might put on here, but will go on the website, because I have definitely lost a bit since then.
Hope you're all well.
Jen
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com/
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
You win some :) You lose some :(
Well it's been an interesting and full on week. My weight has come down and not only am I in ONEDERLAND, but I'm also under 90kgs!!! It's funny because we don't deal in pounds here in Australia, but kilograms and I've never given alot of thought to what I weighed in pounds until I did Michael Thurmond's 6 week body makeover (another diet, which actually did work and had pretty good principles and I lost 20kgs and then put back on 30kg :) and was on the forums there that they talked about this 'onederland' a bit. So I have been keeping my eye on the day that I would reach that goal and here it is! Hence, the winning part of the title. Also being under 90kgs isn't somewhere I've been for over 10 years so it was nice to see that on the scales this morning. I even took a photo, which I was going to post, but I have no idea where the lead is for the computer because I've just moved. I'm pretty happy about it, but it's mostly stress related and I've hardly been able to eat anything.
Now onto the losing part (and I don't mean weight). I got told on Monday that my contract is finishing on Thursday and won't be extended until February, which I was told it was going to be. Merry *^@#$%! Christmas!!! I'm so pissed off because I got headhunted for another role a few weeks ago and I knocked it back because I was supposed to have this role until Feb. That will teach me for doing the right thing!! I just wish I had've known about this weeks ago instead of finding out the week of Christmas. Of course everything shuts down and nothing will happen until the 4th, but it will more likely be even later than that. There's nothing I can do about it, it's the worst time of the year to be out of work. Another reason I'm so bummed is that I moved house recently and have done alot of renovations on it and spent alot of money, including a new kitchen, which is being finalised today and now I have no job, no income and no idea when I will!!! I have got some money saved so I am trying to think positive and just take advantage of the enforced break and enjoy it. So naturally, my Band friend has tightened right up and I can barely eat anything. Not that I want to anyway because I just feel ill and have that awful, sick feeling constantly in my tummy.
Oh well, let's hope 2010 will be a better year. I'll be putting in major efforts to get www.lapbandforthemind.com up and flying so I won't have to rely on other people for work and make it happen myself!!
Have a very Merry Christmas and a safe and Happy New Year everyone!!!!
Jen
Now onto the losing part (and I don't mean weight). I got told on Monday that my contract is finishing on Thursday and won't be extended until February, which I was told it was going to be. Merry *^@#$%! Christmas!!! I'm so pissed off because I got headhunted for another role a few weeks ago and I knocked it back because I was supposed to have this role until Feb. That will teach me for doing the right thing!! I just wish I had've known about this weeks ago instead of finding out the week of Christmas. Of course everything shuts down and nothing will happen until the 4th, but it will more likely be even later than that. There's nothing I can do about it, it's the worst time of the year to be out of work. Another reason I'm so bummed is that I moved house recently and have done alot of renovations on it and spent alot of money, including a new kitchen, which is being finalised today and now I have no job, no income and no idea when I will!!! I have got some money saved so I am trying to think positive and just take advantage of the enforced break and enjoy it. So naturally, my Band friend has tightened right up and I can barely eat anything. Not that I want to anyway because I just feel ill and have that awful, sick feeling constantly in my tummy.
Oh well, let's hope 2010 will be a better year. I'll be putting in major efforts to get www.lapbandforthemind.com up and flying so I won't have to rely on other people for work and make it happen myself!!
Have a very Merry Christmas and a safe and Happy New Year everyone!!!!
Jen
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Groundhog Day.....
So I went to see the lovely Dr Caroline and after discussing the events of 2 weeks ago, she was more than happy to put .1ml back in the band. Given I don't experience any reflux issues she knows I won't abuse the band so back in it went! Unfortunately, it doesn't seem to have made much of a difference though! I definitely don't have the same level of restriction that I had last time and my weight has pretty much remained the same. I have to confess that I realised I had slipped back into some old habits and was eating too much snacky junky type food so this week I'm making an effort to do less of that as well as I think I had also been 'drinking' far too many calories which don't keep the hunger at bay for long enough! So I'm making an effort with that as well. Hopefully it pays off!
Hope everyone is having a great week!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Hope everyone is having a great week!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Ho, Hum....
I haven't posted this week, mostly because I don't have a lot to say really. I know - how boring! To be honest , this week I've been struggling a bit because the loss of .1ml out of my band seems to have made such a difference where I haven't really lost any weight and I have even been fluctuating putting on! Not to mention I can eat more Devastated!
The good news is that I'm going to see the lovely Dr Caroline tomorrow and will have a good chat with her. I've also had a migraine for the last 3 days so that has knocked me around a bit. I feel better today, but am now very tired and can't wait for this week to be over. The more I thought about my last appointment a few weeks ago, the more I get annoyed. Although I know I had been quite tight and not able to eat a lot, I was happy with that because I was getting the results and combined with the thyroid treatment I've been taken I know I had a decent loss. So to have basically stayed the same the last 2 weeks is frustrating. That is the first time I'd seen that Doctor and she doesn't know me from a bar of soap or anything about my history so I should have spoken up. Although she is supposed to be the expert and who am I to question her?! I guess I know my own body best so I should have said something. I didn't because I knew I was coming back in 2 weeks so not a lot could happen. I will discuss with the Dr tomorrow who I have a good history with and see what she thinks. It had taken me a good 6 months to get to what I considered 'ideal restriction' and to lose it again from a measly .1ml out is really quite astonishing.
I still have a good 15kg - 20kg (at least 33 pds) that I want to lose and my BMI is around 34 so I am still classed as obese!!! One thing that annoys me about my surgery centre is that once you have lost 50% of your excess weight they class you as a success. Well I don't know about you, but although I am very proud of myself for the weight I have lost so far, I would hardly consider still being obese, a 'success'. I don't want to be 2 years own the track from my surgery and still trying to lose the last 10kgs.
Not a bad post from someone with nothing to say!!
Hope all is well with everyone :)
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
The good news is that I'm going to see the lovely Dr Caroline tomorrow and will have a good chat with her. I've also had a migraine for the last 3 days so that has knocked me around a bit. I feel better today, but am now very tired and can't wait for this week to be over. The more I thought about my last appointment a few weeks ago, the more I get annoyed. Although I know I had been quite tight and not able to eat a lot, I was happy with that because I was getting the results and combined with the thyroid treatment I've been taken I know I had a decent loss. So to have basically stayed the same the last 2 weeks is frustrating. That is the first time I'd seen that Doctor and she doesn't know me from a bar of soap or anything about my history so I should have spoken up. Although she is supposed to be the expert and who am I to question her?! I guess I know my own body best so I should have said something. I didn't because I knew I was coming back in 2 weeks so not a lot could happen. I will discuss with the Dr tomorrow who I have a good history with and see what she thinks. It had taken me a good 6 months to get to what I considered 'ideal restriction' and to lose it again from a measly .1ml out is really quite astonishing.
I still have a good 15kg - 20kg (at least 33 pds) that I want to lose and my BMI is around 34 so I am still classed as obese!!! One thing that annoys me about my surgery centre is that once you have lost 50% of your excess weight they class you as a success. Well I don't know about you, but although I am very proud of myself for the weight I have lost so far, I would hardly consider still being obese, a 'success'. I don't want to be 2 years own the track from my surgery and still trying to lose the last 10kgs.
Not a bad post from someone with nothing to say!!
Hope all is well with everyone :)
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Monday, November 30, 2009
Another one bites the dust....
Goal, that is!! Saturday marked the official weight loss of minus 40kgs (88 pds) - very excited!!! So close to the 80's too, can't wait to hit that decade!
Went to my surgery centre on Friday to get the results of my blood tests and the lovely fill Dr Caroline wasn't there so I saw someone else I hadn't seen before. She just glossed over the results of the blood tests and said they were fine, which annoyed me a bit because that was the main reason I went. I had lost 5.4 kgs (11.88 pds) in 6 weeks according to their scales and she was 'concerned' that it was too much for this stage of the journey (13 months in). She ended up taking .1ml OUT!!!! I couldn't believe it. She scared me a bit because she was talking about stretching my band so a new stomach forms above it and all these complications that can occur. I was in so much shock that I kind of just went with it and didn't know what to say. I know I hadn't been able to eat a great deal, but I've also been stressed with work and moving house the last 2 weeks so food was not a huge priority. I know I had talked about the flip side of tight vs less restricted, but I didn't know that I was going to get any out! Anyway, it hasn't seemed to have made a massive difference so far because I am still quite tight so we shall see what happens! I don't mind if I am able to eat just a bit more, but I am also mindful that I still have about another 20kgs (44 pds) to lose, which is still quite a bit, and to be honest I just want to get the losing weight bit over and done with! I don't want to be 2 years down the track and still not where I want to be.
I do have another appointment in 2 weeks to see my regular Dr so I'll go to that and see what she says and also what the weight loss looks like. Then I won't have another appointment until the first week in January so hopefully the restriction hangs around!
Have a great week everyone!
Jen
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com/
Went to my surgery centre on Friday to get the results of my blood tests and the lovely fill Dr Caroline wasn't there so I saw someone else I hadn't seen before. She just glossed over the results of the blood tests and said they were fine, which annoyed me a bit because that was the main reason I went. I had lost 5.4 kgs (11.88 pds) in 6 weeks according to their scales and she was 'concerned' that it was too much for this stage of the journey (13 months in). She ended up taking .1ml OUT!!!! I couldn't believe it. She scared me a bit because she was talking about stretching my band so a new stomach forms above it and all these complications that can occur. I was in so much shock that I kind of just went with it and didn't know what to say. I know I hadn't been able to eat a great deal, but I've also been stressed with work and moving house the last 2 weeks so food was not a huge priority. I know I had talked about the flip side of tight vs less restricted, but I didn't know that I was going to get any out! Anyway, it hasn't seemed to have made a massive difference so far because I am still quite tight so we shall see what happens! I don't mind if I am able to eat just a bit more, but I am also mindful that I still have about another 20kgs (44 pds) to lose, which is still quite a bit, and to be honest I just want to get the losing weight bit over and done with! I don't want to be 2 years down the track and still not where I want to be.
I do have another appointment in 2 weeks to see my regular Dr so I'll go to that and see what she says and also what the weight loss looks like. Then I won't have another appointment until the first week in January so hopefully the restriction hangs around!
Have a great week everyone!
Jen
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com/
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
It's not a Monday...
It's Tuesday! I took yesterday off work after the moving of the weekend and although I am feeling like today is a Monday, at least it really isn't! :) The moving went well, as reasonably as it can anyway...about 7.00pm Saturday night when I was suffering sheer exhaustion and even my fingernails were hurting, I was SO happy that I had decided to take Monday off. It was kind of forced anyway because I had the Phone, Cable & Broadband people coming to connect everything and of course they give you a window of 5 hours so you have to sit around and wait. 2 days without my beloved Foxtel (cable) is more than I could handle! 2 of the 3 even turned up early, I couldn't believe it, that is unheard of. A lot of the unpacking is done, but there are still some things to sort out, I'll get there.....
Not a lot going on in Band Land. My weight has stayed the same, which is a tad annoying because I've still hardly been able to eat anything, but with all the moving I was hardly making the best choices possible and I am going to my surgery centre this Friday to get the results of my blood tests and although I won't be getting any fill, I'll have to weigh in. So this week I'll make an effort to eat a bit better and hopefully that will make some difference. Need to think about ramping up the exercise too. When I was walking the boys last night, we went for a bit of a jog and it was definitely easier carrying less weight so I'll have to keep that up. I'm SO close to 40kg (88pds) lost, I wish it would just hurry up! Purely out of coincidence my 10kg losses and major milestone losses are all about the same point so I don't have any for awhile and then they all come in the space of a few weeks. I'm only .5kg away from 40kg loss and only 1.5kg away from the 80s - now that is going to be a special day! I haven't seen an 8- on the scales in 10 years and I know it's 10 years because when I returned from living in London in 1999, I weighed 85kgs. And I didn't stay in the 80s for long either before the numbers started to climb. Hurry UP..............
Have a great week everyone!
Jen
xx
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Not a lot going on in Band Land. My weight has stayed the same, which is a tad annoying because I've still hardly been able to eat anything, but with all the moving I was hardly making the best choices possible and I am going to my surgery centre this Friday to get the results of my blood tests and although I won't be getting any fill, I'll have to weigh in. So this week I'll make an effort to eat a bit better and hopefully that will make some difference. Need to think about ramping up the exercise too. When I was walking the boys last night, we went for a bit of a jog and it was definitely easier carrying less weight so I'll have to keep that up. I'm SO close to 40kg (88pds) lost, I wish it would just hurry up! Purely out of coincidence my 10kg losses and major milestone losses are all about the same point so I don't have any for awhile and then they all come in the space of a few weeks. I'm only .5kg away from 40kg loss and only 1.5kg away from the 80s - now that is going to be a special day! I haven't seen an 8- on the scales in 10 years and I know it's 10 years because when I returned from living in London in 1999, I weighed 85kgs. And I didn't stay in the 80s for long either before the numbers started to climb. Hurry UP..............
Have a great week everyone!
Jen
xx
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com/
Monday, November 16, 2009
Monday :(
I hate Monday's, the weekend is never long enough and I can't stand to come back to work. I always wonder if I was to work 4 days a week and take Monday's off would I eventually feel the same way on Tuesday morning?!?!?
The weekend was very busy preparing to move this Saturday into my new house. There is still so much to do and another reason why I don't want to be at work is because I hardly feel like I had a weekend at all with all the running around and there is still so much to do that I'm worried I'm not going to get it all done before the moving truck arrives! Oh well, I guess it will either have to be done and if it isn't, the things that are left aren't super critical to the actual moving in bit. It's been a long time coming that it doesn't even actually feel like it's happening, I'm just going through the motions. I'm actually really tired and I feel like I need a break. The job situation is still a tad precarious and I don't feel like I can do much at the moment until it's somewhat sorted, which is annoying me.
Anyway enough of that, on to Lap Band news, where there isn't a great deal to report either! I did end up cancelling my appointment, but I will go to the next one because I need to get a blood test done and find out what my thyroid is up to. Hopefully the medication has been helping and there will be some improvement. The weight is coming off at a steady pace and I'm wondering if the medication has anything to do with that as well. As of today I've lost 4.7kgs in the last 4 weeks since my appointment so very happy with that, but most days still quite tight and I struggle with whether to keep it tight and try to get the weight off sooner or get some out and take a little longer. The debate never ends!! It's funny how it literally took me 12 months to the day to get to 'ideal restriction'. I am getting closer to goal, but still a bit to go so that's why I'm keeping it pretty tight at the moment because I don't want to still be trying to get to goal in another 6 months. I'd really like to get on with the business of maintaining!
Have a good week!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
The weekend was very busy preparing to move this Saturday into my new house. There is still so much to do and another reason why I don't want to be at work is because I hardly feel like I had a weekend at all with all the running around and there is still so much to do that I'm worried I'm not going to get it all done before the moving truck arrives! Oh well, I guess it will either have to be done and if it isn't, the things that are left aren't super critical to the actual moving in bit. It's been a long time coming that it doesn't even actually feel like it's happening, I'm just going through the motions. I'm actually really tired and I feel like I need a break. The job situation is still a tad precarious and I don't feel like I can do much at the moment until it's somewhat sorted, which is annoying me.
Anyway enough of that, on to Lap Band news, where there isn't a great deal to report either! I did end up cancelling my appointment, but I will go to the next one because I need to get a blood test done and find out what my thyroid is up to. Hopefully the medication has been helping and there will be some improvement. The weight is coming off at a steady pace and I'm wondering if the medication has anything to do with that as well. As of today I've lost 4.7kgs in the last 4 weeks since my appointment so very happy with that, but most days still quite tight and I struggle with whether to keep it tight and try to get the weight off sooner or get some out and take a little longer. The debate never ends!! It's funny how it literally took me 12 months to the day to get to 'ideal restriction'. I am getting closer to goal, but still a bit to go so that's why I'm keeping it pretty tight at the moment because I don't want to still be trying to get to goal in another 6 months. I'd really like to get on with the business of maintaining!
Have a good week!
Jen
www.lapbandforthemind.com
Monday, November 9, 2009
Quick Update...
Not much to report really, just thought I'd quickly check in. I've been really tight lately and it's a good and a bad thing!
I've lost over 3kgs in the last 3 weeks, which I'm really happy about, but because I'm so tight I've hardly been able to eat anything and not really drink a great deal of liquid either and sometimes it can become a tad tiresome. We always want what we don't have, hey?! I've got an appointment with the lovely Dr Caroline this Friday, but at this stage I'll probably cancel it. It's so funny how something as little as .1ml can make all the difference! I don't want to get any out because I don't want to go the other way, but then sometimes it would be nice to eat and drink a little more. I've also had a few 'PBing' incidents which I don't enjoy at all. On better news, I went shopping and brought a few things in sizes I haven't been near for years so that's always exciting.
Things aren't so good on the job front, really, I can't stand it. I feel like I need a decent break. We're hoping that next year www.lapbandforthemind.com really takes off so I can ditch the crap job. Or we win Tattslotto!!! :)
Have a great week everyone!
Jen
I've lost over 3kgs in the last 3 weeks, which I'm really happy about, but because I'm so tight I've hardly been able to eat anything and not really drink a great deal of liquid either and sometimes it can become a tad tiresome. We always want what we don't have, hey?! I've got an appointment with the lovely Dr Caroline this Friday, but at this stage I'll probably cancel it. It's so funny how something as little as .1ml can make all the difference! I don't want to get any out because I don't want to go the other way, but then sometimes it would be nice to eat and drink a little more. I've also had a few 'PBing' incidents which I don't enjoy at all. On better news, I went shopping and brought a few things in sizes I haven't been near for years so that's always exciting.
Things aren't so good on the job front, really, I can't stand it. I feel like I need a decent break. We're hoping that next year www.lapbandforthemind.com really takes off so I can ditch the crap job. Or we win Tattslotto!!! :)
Have a great week everyone!
Jen
Monday, October 26, 2009
Same Same, but different....
Not a great deal Lap Band wise going on, I brought a new house recently and it settled last Friday so all weekend was spent cleaning and preparing and meeting trades people and spending a lot of money, basically! I find on the weekend that I tend not to eat much because I always have a bit going on whereas during the week while I'm at work I tend to be very hungry. I think it's mostly because I'm bored, I don't like my job so I am always looking for something else to do. This week I am determined to break that cycle and have a good eating week. The weather is (allegedly) going to be good this week so I'll bring my runners in and go for a walk at lunchtime to get additional exercise in. I am also booked in for a fill this Friday, but at this stage I don't think I need to get anything put in, but will re-assess later in the week.
Funny thing that happened yesterday, I was carrying 20 litres (44 pds) of paint (10 in each hand) and I couldn't get over 1) how heavy they were and 2) how I've lost 17kgs more than that!!! It was really quite incredible when you put it in perspective. Can't possibly imagine how I carried all that extra weight, amazing!
Jodie & I went tap dancing last week, bloody hell it was funny and great exercise too! If you're looking to do some decent exercise, get a good workout and have plenty of fun, we suggest you give it a go. Can't wait to go back tomorrow!
Have a good week everyone!
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com/
Funny thing that happened yesterday, I was carrying 20 litres (44 pds) of paint (10 in each hand) and I couldn't get over 1) how heavy they were and 2) how I've lost 17kgs more than that!!! It was really quite incredible when you put it in perspective. Can't possibly imagine how I carried all that extra weight, amazing!
Jodie & I went tap dancing last week, bloody hell it was funny and great exercise too! If you're looking to do some decent exercise, get a good workout and have plenty of fun, we suggest you give it a go. Can't wait to go back tomorrow!
Have a good week everyone!
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com/
Friday, October 16, 2009
"Happy Bandiversary to me…."
I went to see the lovely fill Dr Caroline and decided not to get any fill put in because I have been quite tight and I lost 2.5kgs (5.5pds) in the last 2 weeks so I am VERY happy with that. If I can lose 1kg a week with the eating and exercising I'm doing, I would be extremely satisfied with that. I also got the results of my 12 month blood tests and a few issues which aren't too dire, but still not as good as I would've liked. I'm deficient in folate and vitamin D so she wants me to take additional supplements and I've also got thyroid issues. I've been having trouble with my thyroid for some time and it's taken forever to sort out. I went to see an Endocrinologist and was diagnosed with overactive thyroid (which I thought was strange given I had all the symptoms for under active thyroid) and then given radio active treatment for that and now it seems that my thyroid is under active so the treatment must have worked too well! Now I'm going to have to go on medication for that, I'm hoping it works. I'm also hoping that this has been some of the reason why my weight loss had really hit a plateau for a bit there and this might kick my metabolism back into gear again and the weight loss to pick up. Fingers crossed!!
What a difference 12 months makes!! This time 12 months ago I had already been operated on and was back in my room. If someone had've told me right then that I would lose 35kgs (77 pounds) in the next 12 months with not a great deal of effort at all, I don't know whether I would have believed them!! This is the most weight I've ever lost, although I was coming from a place where I started at a higher weight to begin with so I guess that's not completely unsurprising. In a nutshell, I couldn't be happier. It took me a long time to get to a place where I even decided to go to a Lap Band information session and now, I wouldn't have it any other way. I remember back to about June last year and I was so unhappy. I felt sick and unwell all the time, none of my clothes fit me and really, I just hated myself. I have 2 dogs who demand to be walked twice a day every day and I was so overweight that I had trouble even walking around the small block and my back would hurt so bad and it was a painful experience I didn't look forward to. I had trouble getting out of bed and up off the couch, my knees and ankles were always hurting and I hardly had any clothes that fit me. I can't even imagine what my life would be like if I hadn't gone ahead and had the Gastric Band surgery - the thought actually fills me with dread. I think I was only lucky that I had no other illnesses associated with my obesity and probably the only thing I had on my side was my age. I knew that wasn't going to last forever though so I'm glad I finally acted when I did. This has been the best decision I've ever made.
Now 12 months down the track and I'm so much happier and I just feel so much better. I have more confidence, I have lots of clothes that I can wear now and walking my boys around the block is something I look forward to and we've even started jogging! The last time I went on a plane I didn't have to worry about whether the belt was going to do up or whether I was going to be able to squash myself into the seat, I don't have all those annoying aches and pains I once had. At the moment I'm in between moving houses so I just have the mattress on the floor because my bed is in pieces and I said to my Mum the other day that it's so much easier to get up off the floor when you weight 35kgs less!! 12 months ago there's no way I would have been able to do that everyday, it would have been far too much like hard work! One of the funniest things that I've found great pleasure in (and I'm sure some of your will relate to) is, I can see my collarbones!!!! I reckon the last time they made an appearance was back in high school! :) Isn't it funny how the smallest things can make you so happy??? The other night I went out for a few drinks and caught up with some people I hadn't seen in awhile and I had to wait for them to arrive. I sat by myself in a bar for 20 minutes and just took in everything that was going on. That was a really big achievement for me. 12 months ago not only would I have not gone to the drinks, but there is no way in the world that I would have sat there by myself waiting for people to arrive. Well done, me! I really am proud of myself. That's not to say it's all been smooth sailing. I haven't had any major mishaps with the Lap Band, just your usual PBing incidents and the like, but I've never for one second regretted the decision I've made. Sure some days I wish I could eat a whole pizza, but those days are very few and far between and I have to be honest and say it's not like I've gone without! I'd been on the diet merry-go-round for 20 years before this and had horrible self-esteem issues and there's no way to change all of that in even 12 months so even though I know I've come along way, there's still some way to go too. The positives of this experience and journey well and truly more than outweigh the negatives and no amount of pizza in the world is worth that :)
This is the first Christmas that is fast approaching that I'm not freaking out about because I need to lose all this weight in the shortest amount of time possible. I am getting into unfamiliar territory in terms of my weight loss and I am looking forward to the day where I can maintain my journey and not worry about the losing weight. The best thing about all of it is that when I reach my goal, I can be confident that I'll never put the weight back on again due to the help of my Lap Band friend.
And who knows what the future holds?! All I can say - Bring It On!!!!
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com
What a difference 12 months makes!! This time 12 months ago I had already been operated on and was back in my room. If someone had've told me right then that I would lose 35kgs (77 pounds) in the next 12 months with not a great deal of effort at all, I don't know whether I would have believed them!! This is the most weight I've ever lost, although I was coming from a place where I started at a higher weight to begin with so I guess that's not completely unsurprising. In a nutshell, I couldn't be happier. It took me a long time to get to a place where I even decided to go to a Lap Band information session and now, I wouldn't have it any other way. I remember back to about June last year and I was so unhappy. I felt sick and unwell all the time, none of my clothes fit me and really, I just hated myself. I have 2 dogs who demand to be walked twice a day every day and I was so overweight that I had trouble even walking around the small block and my back would hurt so bad and it was a painful experience I didn't look forward to. I had trouble getting out of bed and up off the couch, my knees and ankles were always hurting and I hardly had any clothes that fit me. I can't even imagine what my life would be like if I hadn't gone ahead and had the Gastric Band surgery - the thought actually fills me with dread. I think I was only lucky that I had no other illnesses associated with my obesity and probably the only thing I had on my side was my age. I knew that wasn't going to last forever though so I'm glad I finally acted when I did. This has been the best decision I've ever made.
Now 12 months down the track and I'm so much happier and I just feel so much better. I have more confidence, I have lots of clothes that I can wear now and walking my boys around the block is something I look forward to and we've even started jogging! The last time I went on a plane I didn't have to worry about whether the belt was going to do up or whether I was going to be able to squash myself into the seat, I don't have all those annoying aches and pains I once had. At the moment I'm in between moving houses so I just have the mattress on the floor because my bed is in pieces and I said to my Mum the other day that it's so much easier to get up off the floor when you weight 35kgs less!! 12 months ago there's no way I would have been able to do that everyday, it would have been far too much like hard work! One of the funniest things that I've found great pleasure in (and I'm sure some of your will relate to) is, I can see my collarbones!!!! I reckon the last time they made an appearance was back in high school! :) Isn't it funny how the smallest things can make you so happy??? The other night I went out for a few drinks and caught up with some people I hadn't seen in awhile and I had to wait for them to arrive. I sat by myself in a bar for 20 minutes and just took in everything that was going on. That was a really big achievement for me. 12 months ago not only would I have not gone to the drinks, but there is no way in the world that I would have sat there by myself waiting for people to arrive. Well done, me! I really am proud of myself. That's not to say it's all been smooth sailing. I haven't had any major mishaps with the Lap Band, just your usual PBing incidents and the like, but I've never for one second regretted the decision I've made. Sure some days I wish I could eat a whole pizza, but those days are very few and far between and I have to be honest and say it's not like I've gone without! I'd been on the diet merry-go-round for 20 years before this and had horrible self-esteem issues and there's no way to change all of that in even 12 months so even though I know I've come along way, there's still some way to go too. The positives of this experience and journey well and truly more than outweigh the negatives and no amount of pizza in the world is worth that :)
This is the first Christmas that is fast approaching that I'm not freaking out about because I need to lose all this weight in the shortest amount of time possible. I am getting into unfamiliar territory in terms of my weight loss and I am looking forward to the day where I can maintain my journey and not worry about the losing weight. The best thing about all of it is that when I reach my goal, I can be confident that I'll never put the weight back on again due to the help of my Lap Band friend.
And who knows what the future holds?! All I can say - Bring It On!!!!
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com
Friday, October 9, 2009
TGIF!!
I'm always happy on a Friday! :) Even though I have to come to work, I try to do as little as possible and the day always seems to go just that little bit quicker! :)
I've lost 1.4kgs (3.08pds) this week and I'm VERY, VERY happy with that. I haven't done as much exercise as I would've liked, but the Band is pretty tight and I've made an effort not to snack as much so it's definitely paying off! If this is to continue I'd be very happy, but I'd actually be very happy just to lose around 1kg a week, actually more than happy with that!
The job situation has finally resolved itself, which has really taken the pressure off in quite a few ways - thankfully. I'm going to a different office to work with my original Manager who is a good bloke so hopefully it will all be good. I'm still trying to offload one financial commitment around my neck which will happen soon so that will be the end of it and all will be right in the world again!
TGIF everyone - have a great weekend!!!!!
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com/Friday, October 2, 2009
Happy Optifastiversary to me…..
Today makes 12 months to the day since I started Optifast, yay for me!! What a difference a year makes!
I'll wait until my official 12 month surgery date to go into things more, but in a nutshell, I just couldn't be happier in this part of my life. With 33kgs (73 pds) gone forever, my life has changed incredibly in the last 12 months. I'm so happy I made the decision to go ahead with the surgery, if I hadn't of, I can't even begin to imagine what I would weigh today. The thought is just far too scary to contemplate! I would've liked to have lost more weight, but I have to be completely honest, I've not had to put a great deal of effort into losing this 33kgs, when in the past to lose the same kind of weight I would have to exercise like a demon and never eat one bad thing in the whole time, I love the band SO much!!
I'm off to see the lovely fill Dr Caroline again this afternoon and I haven't decided if I'm going to have a fill or not. I had a bit of an incident on a protein drink of all things this morning and I think it was mostly because I have to be very, very careful with anything in the morning because I am always tighter than normal. I'll have a discussion with her, but I think I probably still need another .1ml so we'll see. Because I'd been so stressed and therefore tight, I wasn't going to add anymore, but now that's eased off a bit and although I'm still stressed, I can definitely eat more :(
On the job front - nothing definite as yet, but still plugging away hoping that something will come off soon. I had a meeting with my old Manager who originally hired me at this company and he said he has some things available so I've got my fingers and just about everything else crossed that it will all work out! I should know by the end of next week whether it will pan out or not.
Have a good weekend everyone!
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com
I'll wait until my official 12 month surgery date to go into things more, but in a nutshell, I just couldn't be happier in this part of my life. With 33kgs (73 pds) gone forever, my life has changed incredibly in the last 12 months. I'm so happy I made the decision to go ahead with the surgery, if I hadn't of, I can't even begin to imagine what I would weigh today. The thought is just far too scary to contemplate! I would've liked to have lost more weight, but I have to be completely honest, I've not had to put a great deal of effort into losing this 33kgs, when in the past to lose the same kind of weight I would have to exercise like a demon and never eat one bad thing in the whole time, I love the band SO much!!
I'm off to see the lovely fill Dr Caroline again this afternoon and I haven't decided if I'm going to have a fill or not. I had a bit of an incident on a protein drink of all things this morning and I think it was mostly because I have to be very, very careful with anything in the morning because I am always tighter than normal. I'll have a discussion with her, but I think I probably still need another .1ml so we'll see. Because I'd been so stressed and therefore tight, I wasn't going to add anymore, but now that's eased off a bit and although I'm still stressed, I can definitely eat more :(
On the job front - nothing definite as yet, but still plugging away hoping that something will come off soon. I had a meeting with my old Manager who originally hired me at this company and he said he has some things available so I've got my fingers and just about everything else crossed that it will all work out! I should know by the end of next week whether it will pan out or not.
Have a good weekend everyone!
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Where's the silver lining?
Ok, so I've discovered the best way to get ideal restriction - lose your job! Tongue in cheek I know, but unfortunately a reality. I got told on Tuesday that I am 'no longer required' and to be honest, it was a massive shock. When I'm not trying to get http://www.lapbandforthemind.com off the ground, I work in IT as a contractor. I've been doing it for quite some time and you'd think I'd be used to the uncertainty of it, but I've never had a contract end early and I've never been completely blind sided like this, especially when they just renewed my contract until February next year. The 'good news' is that they've given me 3 weeks notice, when they actually only have to give me 24 hours notice so it gives me some time to find something else and still have some money coming in. Normally I wouldn't be too concerned, but I just brought another house and it settles in 4 weeks so financially I'm under a fair bit of pressure and I can't afford not to have an income. It's just me unfortunately and I have no one to back me up, if I don't work, I don't get paid. Normally I have money in the bank for times like this, but because I just brought the house, not so much money left in the bank!
So due to all this stress, my band is VERY TIGHT!! I've barely eaten for the last 3 days, I'm even having trouble with water, I feel sick all the time and I can't sleep. Great for the weight loss, not so good for everything else! I do have Plan A, B, C and all the way to Z so that is something. I'm waiting to see what 'the reason' is that this has happened, as everyone is telling me there is one and I'm sure it will become evident soon enough. I already have a few irons in the fire for a new contract so I'm hoping that this GFC (global financial crisis) I've been hearing SO much about, but have been completely untouched by so far is a bit of a myth!
I know I'll be ok, I have to be, there are no other options…
12 month 'Optifastiversary' is fast approaching next week (03/10), will talk more of that next time….
So due to all this stress, my band is VERY TIGHT!! I've barely eaten for the last 3 days, I'm even having trouble with water, I feel sick all the time and I can't sleep. Great for the weight loss, not so good for everything else! I do have Plan A, B, C and all the way to Z so that is something. I'm waiting to see what 'the reason' is that this has happened, as everyone is telling me there is one and I'm sure it will become evident soon enough. I already have a few irons in the fire for a new contract so I'm hoping that this GFC (global financial crisis) I've been hearing SO much about, but have been completely untouched by so far is a bit of a myth!
I know I'll be ok, I have to be, there are no other options…
12 month 'Optifastiversary' is fast approaching next week (03/10), will talk more of that next time….
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
The Only Way is UP!! (or down, actually….)
Well I finally went to the lovely fill Dr Caroline on Friday and after a healthy discussion, we decided to add .2ml in - hello restriction!!!! It's been great so far, I can definitely notice a big difference, even to the point where I have to be careful drinking water. I know it's pretty tight, but I also know it will ease off so I'm ok with that and I do have another appointment booked in for 2 weeks so I'll see where I'm at then. I like to have them booked in every fortnight just so I have the option there if I need it. It's really hard to get in to see her and after a few dramas with some of the other fill doctor's at My weight has dropped down a bit in the past 2 days so I'm also really happy about that.
I'm continuing to do additional exercise each day, which I'm really happy about and Jodie & I have decided that next month we're going to start Tap Dance Class Lessons!!! Should be great fun, it will be good to do something different and new rather than the usual boring 'go for a walk' exercise.
Stay tuned for further details…
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com
I'm continuing to do additional exercise each day, which I'm really happy about and Jodie & I have decided that next month we're going to start Tap Dance Class Lessons!!! Should be great fun, it will be good to do something different and new rather than the usual boring 'go for a walk' exercise.
Stay tuned for further details…
http://www.lapbandforthemind.com
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